Baby steps

This mind over matter “stuff” is actually sinking in to my head when it comes to watching what I eat. On the way to work today I had a huge craving for a a greasy breakfast sandwich washed down by a sugary iced beverage from the golden arches.
I was falling into the same old patterns, plotting my stop at the restaurant even before my feet touched the floor just like I can only imagine an alchoholic would do(I said I was a food addict). I got in my car and thought about how good these things would taste and then something strange happened. I remembered how I looked in some recent photos and remembered how dumbstruck I was to actually see how big I had become. I have been able to brush off these thoughts of the photos previously and allowed my desires to take over but this morning was different. I actually remember the Bible verses I had written down that I thought would help me in a time of need just like this one. I read those verses and imagined myself skinny and then did something I should have done years ago. I prayed. I asked God to helpo me get through this drive to work and asked for strenghth to not pull into the drive through. I have come to realize that I am powerless to combat this addiction on my own and that I needed God’s help to get me through it. While it wasnt easy, I didnt pull in!! I felt like I fought this need for food this morning for a good part of my drive but the thing is I didint stop. I didnt let this addiction control me, I, with the help of God, controlled it!! For me, this is a huge step and one to celebrate if only for a short while because the drive home will provide me with an even larger challenge. One day at a time, one hour at a time!!

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