Springtime is here!!

Well we have finally hit spring time….even if the thermometer does not reflect this fact!  Either way we are heading into the weekend where it should be nice and in the 50’s which is good walking weather.  I need to get myself a new pair of shoes as the ones I have now are worn out and then I plan on doing some walking this weekend.  Of course I have a huge amount of homework that is due by Tuesday but while the sun is shining I want to get some walking in.

Not much else happening in our world. Just looking forward to the beginning of spring time and the start of baseball season that is just a few short weeks away.

Whats this??? Is that really spring I see????

Sping is a time where living things spring from the ground and we all emerge from our winter hideouts.  Its a time when we look back to the hard winter we have just emerged from and look forward to the fun times that are expected to be ahead for us as we enjoy the summer sun and Gods blessings.  After a period of time off from this blog I feel its time to start it back up again start to record my thoughts and hopes once again.  

I promise to provide no excuses for the last 2+ months and my lack of doing anything about my weight.  Besides school being unbelieveable hectic and the fact that I just could not go outside to do anything I really dont have any more excuses so I will not even try to make some up.  The only thing I can do now is to fall on my sword, admit my mistakes and go forward with my mission.  So that is what I am doing today on this blog, admitting mistakes and realizing that I can screw up but that screw up should not ruin all the good things I have done so far.  So in the interest of moving forward…here goes.

The 60 in 60 experiemnet was stupid!  Knowing myself as well as I do pressure to perform like that was not a motivating factor but pressure I could literally feel.  When under pressure I have always turned to food to help me through and although I didnt eat like a sow and gain a huge pile of weight I crumbled under the pressure and hid from the world.  I have gotten back into some bad habits but not so deep into them that I cannot reverse them.  Some good things are that I still have not had any soda since my surgery date and french fries are not things I even crave anymore.  I still take turkey sandwiches to work and dont eat incredibly bad stuff while at work.  I have tended to eat crap while at home but thats only because nobody has wanted to actually make meals so that is something I have to reverse.  I have to focus on the good things I have continued to do and realize that I have not really done all that bad.  I am in a far better place than I was last year at this time and it will only get better!

Now that it is getting nicer I can resume walking outside now.  I have been walking inside at work but that has become so old and boring that the last few weeks I have almost stopped the afternoon walks.  Today I have resumed these walks but I know in a week or 2 I will be able to be outside and enjoythe great weather on my lunch hour instead of watching white walls go by.

I am so looking forward to so many things this summer.  Things such as walks by the lake, Picnics with my wife and ballgames and concerts.  I was able tolose a good amount of weight last summer and fall and that is what I intend to do again this coming summer.  I will not set a goal weight for the end of summer but will definitly work to drop as many pounds as I can. 

As to the weigh ins and other stuff to keep me honest. I will resume my weigh ins in 2 weeks as the next 2 Saturdays I will be at school and unable to get to the doctors office.  In 2 weeks….April 11th I will report where I am with the weight and take an actual picture of it as I promised before.  Its time to get back into action and there is no better time than now to get it started!

Where have I been???

Its been a month since my last post.   Yeah a whole month….so what happened?Many things happened, life, discouragement, school, discouragement,school all sorts of things. 

I have been pretty discouraged since my last post and to be honest I have been struggling with many things.  Once again I find myself sitting here trying to decide what happened and trying to figure out what my next steps are.  I havnt been on the scale in awhile mainly because the only day I can weigh in is Saturday and 3 of the last 5 Saturdays have found me in school.  2 other Saturdays we had things going on so there was no way I was going to be able to get in there and find out where I am at.

 

I have also been stressed about school as this is a pretty intense class schedule that requires many many hours of work outside the classroom.  And since it is a writing course that I am currently taking I definitly have not felt like coming in here and writing after I have spent a good majority of the last 4 weeks doing nothing but writing for my class.  Some will say these are excuses but I know they are not.  I know I am fried out between school, work and the huge drive I have everyday.  We have also volunteered to be board members for a local non profit place which is taking up alot of time as well.  Things seems to be getting better but I am still fried out and would really welcome some serios down time but I just dont think that is going to happen.

So getting back to the weight loss issue I need to get the band filled with more saline.  I should have done this at least 3 times now since the last fill and I just have not had the money to be able to pay for it.  I have set aside some money for this procedure and have an appointment for the middle of march to get this done.  This will help eliminate more food from being consumed and help me with my weight loss.

Sharon and I have also talked about joining a gym near our place and even though it is expensive we feel we will need to somehow make a sacrafice and just do it.  We dont have any extra money but we will have to find a way to make it work. 

Other than that not much going on.  Its finally almost spring here and although we have a temperature of only 10 degrees outside today I know spring is close which will really help me get back into the weight loss program.