Where the hell have I been??

A question I have been asking myself for most of the last 7 months is where have I been?  I am not talking about my physical location but my mental place in this world.  I haven’t posted here in nearly 7 months and many excuses can be made for that.  School has taken a majority of my waking hours while I not at work which has contributed to my missing all these months on my blog.  Laziness, indifference as well as no longer wanting to lay my life out there for others to criticize and view for fear of letting others down like I have done for a majority of my life.  But after thinking about these writings I have done, I realized that it might have been the very writings that, in the past kept me on the straight and narrow path that held me to my goals.  I got to think about how much I actually missed blogging and I felt it was time to get back to doing what I enjoy doing regardless if I dont have the time needed to devote to this blog.  I will just need to find time to do these things that were making a difference in my life and blogging here is one of those things.  I am pretty sure I have lost all of the readers who checked in here from time to time but thats fine with me.  I started this blog for myself as a way to keep a record of where I came from and I never thought anyone would care enough to read the mindless words that spilled out of my mouth like fast food crumbs used to fall from my shirt!  I really dont mind others reading my thoughts but I am sure most will not check back in here to see what I am up to.  So for me and anyone else who cares to read….and update!!

The last 7 months have been a challenge to do what is right in regards to my weight.  I will not say I have been good and eaten only what I am supposed to do.  I guess if that was the case I would never have stopped blogging and let everyone know how well I was doing.  Since I am now a full time college student as well as a full time employee it has been a challenge to eat right while driving between school and work.  While it is easier to stop at McDonalds and order a chicken sandwich (no fries or anything else nasty like that) and drive on down the road, it is not the best option.  While these 7 months have gone by fast and I am sad to say I have stopped at the drive up window to more fast food restaurants than I care to mention I have been doing somewhat decent with my weight…….well kinda.  I jumped on the scale 4 weeks ago after not being on one since December and found out that I had only gained 6 pounds.  Yes!! I know!!  6 pounds is not good but to be honest I thought I had gained back at least 15 or 20.  The nice thing is I had a chance to jump back on the scale a week later and found that I had lost 1 pound already.  So have I been back on the scale since??? No..but am hoping to make a visit to the doctor this weekend so we will see.

I also had a chance to get a physical a few weeks back and this included a complete blood work up.  With the exception of being a fat guy I never really had any serious issues with my health and that includes cholesterol etc.  When I started this weight loss journey my cholesterol was nearing 200 which is the mark where the doctors start telling you  that the cholesterol is too high.  I am happy to report that in the past yeah my cholesterol has actually dropped 30 points to 164.  The doctor as well as my wife were amazed that despite the track that I got off of , my important numbers like cholesterol and sugars etc are actually very very normal.  Now couple this great news with the fact that I did not pack on a huge amount of weight has really made me feel better about myself and I now know I didnt do damage to my health like I thought I did.

So where does that take me now??  Wel I will never make great predictions about weight loss in 60 days or anything else like that again.  I have to just get back to sensible eating and avoid the crap foods I feel have been creaping back into my life.  Yeay yeay I know…same ole story different day.  I Know! I agree! this is the fight I always fight and I guess it will never go away.  But at this point I need to jump back into the fray and battle my way to being non-fat!!

One a side note my wife also went to the doctor and she had the opposite results in her blood work. everything was high and the doctor has wanted to put her on more meds to control her cholesterol and blood pressure.  That actually kicked her in the butt and she has now been walking 45 -60 minutes, 5 days a week for nearly 6 weeks now.  There is no doubt she lost weight and she is now energized to keep losing more weight.  I am getting jeolous of her so I guess I need to get moving and battle here for the record of most weight loss in our family!!

So that is pretty much the update.  I will be checking in here at least weekly to update this blog on where I am at (and my wife too!! I am so proud of her!!)

Thanks for reading…see ya soon

Springtime is here!!

Well we have finally hit spring time….even if the thermometer does not reflect this fact!  Either way we are heading into the weekend where it should be nice and in the 50’s which is good walking weather.  I need to get myself a new pair of shoes as the ones I have now are worn out and then I plan on doing some walking this weekend.  Of course I have a huge amount of homework that is due by Tuesday but while the sun is shining I want to get some walking in.

Not much else happening in our world. Just looking forward to the beginning of spring time and the start of baseball season that is just a few short weeks away.

Whats this??? Is that really spring I see????

Sping is a time where living things spring from the ground and we all emerge from our winter hideouts.  Its a time when we look back to the hard winter we have just emerged from and look forward to the fun times that are expected to be ahead for us as we enjoy the summer sun and Gods blessings.  After a period of time off from this blog I feel its time to start it back up again start to record my thoughts and hopes once again.  

I promise to provide no excuses for the last 2+ months and my lack of doing anything about my weight.  Besides school being unbelieveable hectic and the fact that I just could not go outside to do anything I really dont have any more excuses so I will not even try to make some up.  The only thing I can do now is to fall on my sword, admit my mistakes and go forward with my mission.  So that is what I am doing today on this blog, admitting mistakes and realizing that I can screw up but that screw up should not ruin all the good things I have done so far.  So in the interest of moving forward…here goes.

The 60 in 60 experiemnet was stupid!  Knowing myself as well as I do pressure to perform like that was not a motivating factor but pressure I could literally feel.  When under pressure I have always turned to food to help me through and although I didnt eat like a sow and gain a huge pile of weight I crumbled under the pressure and hid from the world.  I have gotten back into some bad habits but not so deep into them that I cannot reverse them.  Some good things are that I still have not had any soda since my surgery date and french fries are not things I even crave anymore.  I still take turkey sandwiches to work and dont eat incredibly bad stuff while at work.  I have tended to eat crap while at home but thats only because nobody has wanted to actually make meals so that is something I have to reverse.  I have to focus on the good things I have continued to do and realize that I have not really done all that bad.  I am in a far better place than I was last year at this time and it will only get better!

Now that it is getting nicer I can resume walking outside now.  I have been walking inside at work but that has become so old and boring that the last few weeks I have almost stopped the afternoon walks.  Today I have resumed these walks but I know in a week or 2 I will be able to be outside and enjoythe great weather on my lunch hour instead of watching white walls go by.

I am so looking forward to so many things this summer.  Things such as walks by the lake, Picnics with my wife and ballgames and concerts.  I was able tolose a good amount of weight last summer and fall and that is what I intend to do again this coming summer.  I will not set a goal weight for the end of summer but will definitly work to drop as many pounds as I can. 

As to the weigh ins and other stuff to keep me honest. I will resume my weigh ins in 2 weeks as the next 2 Saturdays I will be at school and unable to get to the doctors office.  In 2 weeks….April 11th I will report where I am with the weight and take an actual picture of it as I promised before.  Its time to get back into action and there is no better time than now to get it started!